A Disturbance...

For the few who read the ramblings of the Warehouse Keeper, which by the way is coming along well and should be finished with-in the next few weeks, you realize how he enjoys looking deep into old movies. Looking for hidden meanings with his ability to unravel the whole movie, swearing the writers of the movie really had another plot in mind when they wrote it. There are no hidden meanings in the ramblings of the Keeper, just life and or movies the way he see's it.

In 1977 Star Wars or later retitled Episode IV a New Hope, premiered. Awesome special effects and storyline. Great characters who blew our mind away and one's we would love to have been in real life. One of the characters, the villain, Darth Vader, became the stuff of numerous children nightmares!

The evil black leather or plastic look, his, "I don't give a crap you gonna die" attitude and that deep, asthmatic breathing,,knew this dude was coming around the corner long before he even got there! Topped with that ominous voice of James Earl Jones, you knew you didn't want to fornicate with the Dark Lord of the Sith!!

All we knew in the first 3 installments of Star Wars was, Vader was bad, the rebellion was eventually going to win and all would be peaceful and wonderful in the cosmos! Little did we know that Vader was actually Anaken Skywalker, father of Luke and Leah, twin brother and sister, who kissed in the first movie and didn't feel funky about it!

Pure and simple,,Darth Vader/ Anakin Skywalker was evil to the freakin core!! He didn't care about anything or anyone and really wouldn't stop at anything as long as it benefited the Empire and his dark master, The Emperor! Dude would have choked you as to breathe on you! Stomp you in the ground and blow up your planet and be home in time for corn flakes! Everyone hated him for his evilness! He had his own agenda and his own way to handle things. If you didn't jive with him,,you suffered surgery, deadly surgery with a light saber!!

Then thirty years later they came out with Star Wars, The Phantom Menace, followed by two more. I thought it was stupid to show me three movies, which started in the middle of the book leading to the end, then thirty years later, back up and tell me how it all started. I didn't care really, I already knew Vader dies, the rebellion lives and all the hero's survive!!

But the Phantom Menace began telling a different story. It told the humble beginnings of poor ole Darth Vader. A sweet little kid born into slavery, hoping and wishing for a better way of life for himself and his mother. He loved his mom as most kids do,,even future Dark Lords, he loved momma!

As he was traded off, yep traded off to a bunch of Jedi Knights, he became friends with Queen Amidalia, cute chick and the surprise of getting the hots for her when he grew up, amazed even me!

Long story short here, cause I can go on and on longer than the energizer bunny, Anakin grew into a powerful Jedi, fell in love with Amidalia, experienced the death of his mom by the hands of the Sand People, which he flew off the handle and slaughtered! Thus beginning his journey to the dark side!

He loved Amidalia with all his heart, with the fiercest passion possible! Worrying about losing her one day as he did his mother. Worried that she would die with dreams and premonitions he had for-telling impending doom. Anakin searched for ways to protect her, he, of course, did not want to lose her and the only love he had in his life. Feeling betrayed by the Jedi order, he was tempted by the dark side with promises of gaining power which would enable him to do what he wanted and protect whom he wanted form any type of future doom.

Last of the three new movies shows Anakin turning himself to the dark side because he felt alone, alienated and so driven to protect the one he loved. This also turned him against his friends leading up to one massive fight between himself and Obi-Wan Kenobi on some type of fire planet. Obi-wan cutting his legs off and leaving him burned, almost to death. Anakin was saved by the Emperor and encased in this robotic iron lung now familiar with the character of Darth Vader.

It all made sense now! Perfect sense! Star Wars was an intergalactic story of the ultimate dysfunctional family!!

I understood now why Vader was the mad, angry hate filled man that he was. He had witnessed the death of the only women he ever loved. His mother and told later by the Emperor that, he himself, had killed his beloved wife! This drove him into a frenzy which would be used in his journey through the dark side, governing the empire with an iron fist. Destroying everything and anyone who got in his way. He was the Dark Lord!!!

In A new Hope, when the mush older Obi-Wan came on board the Death Star, Vader sensed his presence, "There's a disturbance in the force..a presence I haven't felt since...!" He knew who it was and I honestly believe he knew his reign of galactic terror was nearing an end!

I believe he felt it, sensed it's end and mentally prepared for it. All those years of letting past regrets and remorse eat at him and control him was nearing its climax!

I believe also that we, if we listen, can feel that disturbance in our own force. I think we can pick up on things that linger in the life force and know that things are about to change.

It is such a shame that Anakin allowed his emotions to drive him over the edge. A shame that, he would give up his humanity just to have what his heart wanted or needed! Instead of seeing him as the ultimate villain, I now felt sorry for him, sympathy because he lost all he ever loved and gained nothing but the torment inside his mind which kept him alive and determined. Unsure what that determination was, but sure his hatred and regret drove him!

What did his soul feel after all he loved was taken from him? Why did he not return back to the side of good? No one knows and I am certain I can scarcely imagine why he stayed. Hmm, perhaps he stayed with the dark side because it helped him relive all his mistakes. The memories were his companions and his heart desired no new ones in his life. He wanted no new love nor did he choose to feel. Feel anything but the cancerous hate he had inside. Wanted nothing to do with any type of emotions which could lure another tragedy into his life!

I am sure he wanted to love again, but seen the monster which he had become. Knowing no one could ever love what he had allowed himself to be. The monster which haunted him all his life! This was his monster, and no one could ever release him from the regrets of his past life.

I think Vader knew,,the disturbance in the force was always there! He knew that one day, his past would finally catch up with him and all would be lost forever! Living to the very last, his only friend being the much more evil Emperor! The omnipotent presence which continued to drive him into the dark side, never giving him a second to stop and think about any possibility of good left inside of his soul.

I wonder if Darth Vader ever stopped long enough to look at the man he once was and see who he has become. I wonder if he ever fully regretted being in love so deeply that he was willing to surrender all he could have possibly been, just to hold onto it? I wonder, if he had, if it would have been worth it?

I feel a disturbance in the force..an end? Who knows! We are what others have made us but usually of our own choice! We have the right to either change or stay true to ourselves forbidding ourselves to change simply to win someone or something. This would only be a false victory and we would honestly have nothing worth holding onto! We shouldn't mold ourselves falsely in order to keep what really wasn't ours to begin with. If Anakin had resisted the desire to control those emotions and resisted his desire to protect what his heart hungered for, would he still be Anakin Skywalker? Perhaps!

My take on Star Wars? A seriously dysfunctional family! The love of a lonely boy turned powerful Jedi. A lover or passion, desire and the need to feel such from others as well. Wanting to fit in and feel like the man he always wanted to be. But never once realizing he was ok the way he was. He was loved and lost that love. He should have held onto that memory and cherish it instead of trying to control it. He lost!

I wonder, as he lay there maskless, his son Luke holding him near, his own mortality staring him in the face, if he thought back? I wonder if he thought, why did I screw up my life so much? Why did I hurt so many and be hated by so many more? Why did I not just settle for what I was given instead of trying to make the ignorant feelings and desires of a human heart manifest into reality? We may never know my blog reading friends!

Do you believe in the force? Believe that we can sense things that are going to happen before they happen? Can you dig where I am coming from? Are you a believer? Are you? If not, "you will be...you will be!"